Author: Avalonia

I am terrible at updating this thing.

Well, NaNoWriMo is nearly over for another year. I’m currently at 75k – I managed to write a 50k draft in a week. This is not my usual pace, but I just wanted to see if I could do it. I did. Now I’ve started working on a different project. I doubt I’ll have this one finished by the end of the month, but I want to see what the end total will be. As for that draft that I spent the first 50k on? I have no idea when or if that will ever be ready for public consumption. I somehow managed to write an epic fantasy with hardly any worldbuilding. It’s going to take a lot of time to stew before it remotely works.

As for Champions? It’s…  going. I can’t seem to get the first chapter right, and I’m on my third attempt (fourth if you include the zero draft). I’m hoping to have it up in a few weeks, but I can’t be sure. I know what’s supposed to happen in it, although I don’t have a good outline (because I never have good outlines for these things), but that first chapter is causing issues. Doesn’t want to come out right no matter how I write it. But fingers crossed that it’ll be ready by mid to late December. You know how sometimes you can’t word things right? That’s what’s going on with this one. For some reason, I can’t do it. I can’t quite get my main character’s voice right (the current draft is in a first person POV, but that may change), and I’m not sure what to do to make it right. Ah, the trials and tribulations of writing.

Right now I’m watching The Crown, and waiting for the corgis to appear (when I’m not trying to identify fountain pens and if they’re ones that are appropriate for the time period). I have counted one corgi. I feel like there should be more.

(Also, the job search, as I’ve mentioned in previous posts, is not going well either, but that’s besides the point. It’s the main reason why I’ve had enough time to write 50k words in a week.)

If I still lived in St. John’s, I would vote Finn for mayor

First of all, look at this good boy. He would be an excellent mayor for my province’s capital.

Second of all, the job search is… going. Not going fast, but it’s going. Economically depressed area, what else can you do but hope for something okay, maybe not the best, but just okay.

Thirdly, right. Writing. That has also been going. Unfortunately, my ADHD has been worse than ever, and I actually haven’t been writing that much. But I can tell you a bit about what will (eventually) show up on Fiction for the Fading. Eventually. It’s going to be another few months, and it’s not very much right now. I think I’m at chapter 3 in the second draft? (… let’s not get into what happened to the zero draft I was working on before. Because I don’t have it anymore. There were technical issues and somehow the entire file got wiped and I am still irritated because that was 15 000 words just going *poof*.)

The working title is Champions. It has nothing to do with sports, there’s another reason behind it. It’s still urban fantasy, just like how The Wake was, but less sprawling and hopefully easier to keep track of.

If you’ve read The Wake, about 80% of the character names are going to look familiar because I basically ripped everything to shreds, and started reorganizing it all, modifying it. Their origins are different, their stories are different, but I think their personalities are much the same. Or to put it another way, I started writing an AU of my own story and then the AU took over. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Also, I have a Spotify playlist that’s updated very sporadically related to this project, should you want to listen to that. Right now there’s only 12 songs, but it’ll probably get bigger as the months go on.

Speaking of The Wake, I’m going to eventually (maybe in a month or two) unprivate (publicate? what word do you even use for that?) all three volumes. I made it private so I could work out new tags initially, and then I found out that WriteShare (the plugin I use because I am really bad at updating tables of contents and it generates ones similar to what AO3 has instead) uses a different posting method that wouldn’t cross over with the WordPress posts and therefore, nothing would get mixed up anyway.  So yeah, that’s coming back at some point should you want to read them.

As for the characters of Issue 1… uh… I have no idea. I assume I’ll do something with them in the future, but as of right now, it’ll stay on the site as my way of practicing how to make ebooks. I do like them, but I haven’t really come up with a new plot for them.

So basically I’ve spent several weeks doing very little but refreshing job ad aggregators. I also created a whole year’s worth of two-day-per-page planner pages (couldn’t find a design I liked, so I made them by hand. It’s heavily inspired by Cornell notes and for maximum space usage). Was going to buy something for 2018 but figured I’d try my own design first. (And by hand, I mean, I drew every line and date 365 times with pencil and a ruler. There is graphite smeared all over the clipboard I use as a portable hard surface because of this.) This is why I don’t update – my life is boring. But I figured I’d check in. Things are going. Going slowly, but still going.

I have no idea what I’m talking about.

Every single time I try to start a blog, it never works out. This is why the last entry for this one was over a year ago. I keep misplacing the links and whatever.

In any case, considering the downtime right now on the serial, it seems like an okay time to pick this back up again.

The reason behind the downtime is this: I got burned out. And burned out bad. I hated looking at what I was writing. I kind of hated all writing that I’ve done in the last five or so years. I was frustrated. And so I stopped partway through an issue (which actually isn’t done at all).

I forced myself to take a break. I just read and read and read instead, but no writing. I watched an entire season of Voltron: Legendary Defender in an afternoon.  Just reading and catching up on stuff. I let the materials stew. After a few days, I realised what I had been doing wrong – and it is a lot of wrong things. So much so that I decided that I had to completely stop what I was writing and start over.

And that’s a lot of work to start over on. I’ve been working on The Wake, in various iterations, for well over twelve years. You guys only saw the two most recent iterations. That’s a lot to throw out. But I think it had to be done – I was writing myself into knots. The story was too big and too hard to deal with. It didn’t even have an end to it in any way.

I’m still working out what to do with it now. I’m at a zero draft of one possible way to take the characters, and it is entirely and completely different than what I started with. Very, very different. I’m going to have to rename it because it’s so different. I won’t know until the end of the zero draft (and I’m not going into any detail right now) how viable a story it is yet, but I figure this draft should be done in a week or two (I can type really fast when I want to).  After that, I may go back to handwriting the next draft (I’m also a fast handwriter with a lot of ink and pencils to get through), and then a draft that I’ll actually put up. That is, if I get towards the end of the zero draft and it still makes sense. It’s a bit of a jumble right now.

I’m going to try to write more during the actual writing process here, maybe as a way of slowing things down and getting a better idea of what I’m doing.

In which I am late with posting. Again.

As far as I know, as of writing this entry, the final update for the intermission should be posted by tonight. It’s about time that it goes up since I really need to get back to the main storyline again and get that finished up… however, I think I have two fifths left to go for it, if not more.

I didn’t intend to be this late with it – stuff caught up with me. I moved out of my university dormitories on Friday, and after that (and all of the unpacking that entailed) I completely lost track of time.

And then there was my computer.

I upgraded my computer from Windows 7 to Windows 10 yesterday. I’ve had Windows 10 on my laptop for months (also an upgrade – that one went from 8.1 which I loathed), so I figured it’ll be just fine.

Ha. Hahahahahaha. No.

I didn’t know I was logged into a temporary profile, and me being a dumbass moved all my files into the temporary profile’s documents/pictures/music/etc. folders. And then I noticed a problem with the audio driver, so I did the thing (you delete the driver, and reinstall it and usually it fixes it) and after restarting the computer, ended up in the not-temporary profile associated with my Microsoft account.

Fun fact: when you log out of a temporary account, everything you did in there gets deleted. Did I know this? No, I didn’t. Imagine my confusion when I discovered that I had somehow gained 500 gigabytes of disk space.

So for four hours, I did everything I could to find those missing files – every hidden folder I could open up, I looked for them. Eventually, I gave up and used Recuva, which found almost everything. However, I didn’t need it for everything, because I routinely back up my media to an external hard drive, and all of my current writing projects are on Dropbox or Google Drive or on paper, so it was mostly just a few stray files and some old drafts (from 2006 to 2010). It still took over an hour and a half to go through the list of over 57 000 files and by then, my head and eyes hurt. I had access to the file with the serial in it, but with that many restarts, I was sure I was going to lose something (even though I have Scrivener set to auto-save every minute, just in case). I also very nearly lost my TurboTax files which would have been very bad.

So, don’t be like me. Even if Windows says it won’t remove your files, back them up just in case, because the temporary profile thing (which will delete anything you download or move around) could very well happen to you too. I didn’t have this issue with my laptop, but obviously, it’s a random thing. And Recuva is a good program to use.

Also, I did finally get the audio driver problem fixed. That was probably the least of my troubles yesterday.

So there’s my excuse for not having the update when I planned to have it up. Instead I’m not splitting it at the 1500/2000 word mark (like I usually do to make it less wall of text-y) and just putting it all up at once. After this, we revert back to the original storyline, because wow, I’m behind with that. I’ve got a bit of a rough draft written (like on paper), but I feel like it’s too big of a jump right now so I may have to backpedal and figure out where I’m going with it.

I actually do have most of  Volume 3 planned (the intermission was just something I randomly decided to do), so I’m not 100% making it up as I go along (just 60%), so I hope to tie this all up in a few months as well. I feel like I’ve been dragging out these last two volumes, which is bad because this is the build-up. Shit starts to go down at the end of Volume 3 and from there on forwards, and I’m just trying to set the stage, so to speak.

As for Camp NaNoWriMo… yeah. That is a failure. 5000 words? Something like that. I seem to have the complete inability to actually write my goal during Camp NaNo, but then, I also failed last year with NaNoWriMo proper with only 25k, so I don’t know what it is lately.

I should be studying.

This is the blog that no one asked for, but it’s better than writing lots of really stupid author’s notes on every update that I post, so hi there. This is my semi-personal blog, where I ramble and talk about everything including the Wake, other writing, and other stuff in my life. Yay?

Speaking of the Wake. I said over a year ago that I was going to rewrite Volume 1 and then post it on Wattpad because the audience is bigger there (I’ve managed to make my serial almost ungoogleable – I don’t know how, but I guess it’s the combination of very common words that did it). I have not done this. I have the account, just not the posting. Guess how far I am in rewriting. Just guess.

It’s two chapters. I have, in fact, cleaned up the first chapter by a lot. There is still no way for me to not introduce all of the characters at once without stretching things out to a painful degree so at the moment, everyone is stuck with the cast herd.

But that’s not the problem. The problem is a simple yet big one. Point of view. The earlier drafts of Volume 1 were in first person. I changed it to third for the serial for the potential of head-hopping. I’m now stuck as to whether keep it in third or switch it back to first because of those storylines that are occurring in the volume. My initial plan was to split it into two books and write them in first (let’s be honest, I dropped the ball pretty badly with Aislin’s storyline), but then I was like “but I could still do two storylines at once it won’t be too bad” and now I’m stuck. Hooray. So if it seems like I’m not getting any further, it’s because I’m not. I would certainly like to, I’m just at this big dumb roadblock that’s preventing me from actually writing what I need to be writing.

And the Wake is not the only thing I work on, though it’s by far the biggest. I’ve got a bunch of smaller stories that I’m trying to get into shape enough so I can write them (couple of historical romance series, a couple of fantasy series, etc. I don’t like getting too much into detail when they’re in this shaky of shape since I barely know what’s going on with them yet). Balancing everything is not exactly something I’m good at so again, if it seems like I’m not writing as much as I could be, that’s just the stuff I’m putting online. There’s a lot handwritten and in physical form, partially written drafts and so many notes everywhere. My brain doesn’t want to shut off.

Anyway, I really do feel bad about the lack of consistent updates over the last couple of months. I’m not very good at keeping a buffer so sometimes I run out of steam and can’t write much per week. I was way more consistent at the beginning because I had three-quarters of that draft already written when I had started posting it. I’m trying, I really am.

I should really be studying for my finals on Tuesday and Thursday. And all things going okay, I’ll have updates this week tonight/tomorrow and Wednesday/Thursday, fingers crossed. (If I’m not too busy fanthinging over Homestuck, because that could happen.)